[Chatter] Another lipstick I’ve fallen back in love with – Rimmel Lasting Finish Kate Matte 111 Kiss of Life

Hi everyone!
A few weeks ago, I attempted some photos in the sporadic Golden Hour lighting to showcase the items but the weather was not playing nice! One moment it was sunny and I managed one photo before it vanished again and I would tweet a complaint and it would be sunny and so on…
But just yesterday, the sun was out, and it was out for like, an hour (?????) and I got SO many photos taken and oh my gawd, it felt so good and productive and it’s really upped my mood. I was running around so fast with a mental checklist of blog posts that needed photos and as a result, I’m almost set until next month, thank goodness. I didn’t completely finish my checklist and accidentally missed a few important ones, but that’s okay! I can do those next time! PHEW – I was almost about to cut my schedule to once a week!
THANK YOU SPRING, MY NAMESAKE. THANK YOU.
I’ve also switched out of my winter coat for my lighter jacket, and when I stepped out to do the bins in my shorts, I didn’t freeze! This winter felt so bloody long and I’ve never been happier to feel it finally ending.

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Anyway, I am enjoying the idea of writing about a lipstick that fell by the wayside of my stash, so to speak. Last month I featured Clinique’s Pop Lip in Cherry Pop after wearing it for almost half the month. I already loved that lipstick but hadn’t really been wearing it often. On the other hand, with today’s featured lipstick, it’s a little different. I only began to fully appreciate it recently.

I actually first received this as a Christmas present from Tray, years ago. Then months later I ended up with two because Q bought me one as well! I think I ended up giving one away as I no longer have two in my stash. But at the time, this must have been a very ‘me’ kind of shade because I was experimenting in sixth form with a limited selection of bright colours.

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This lipstick will only set you back £4.99. It’s from Rimmel London’s Lasting Finish range, but more specifically from the Kate Moss Mattes, which all come in red tubes. This is the same range that spawned the infamous shade 107, popularised by… Zoella, I think it was. I do have that shade, too, but we may not see it in rotation for a little while longer.

As you may know, Rimmel’s Lasting Finish range is full of really nice lipsticks at a great price. This one’s really nicely pigmented although not thick or fully opaque as you can see from the swatch below, and it’s very smooth and soft on the lips. It wears quite decently by itself and doesn’t bleed too much or ‘crack’ after many hours, and it’s pleasant enough to reapply. It’s not too drying, either. The only big gripe I have about these lipsticks is the smell which isn’t exactly appealing but easy enough to get used to – it’s not strong. It also tends to taste as it smells, if that makes sense.

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My favourite way to apply this at the moment is to apply to the centre of the lips straight from the bullet, then use a lip brush to work the colour outwards and outline the lips, then go back in the centre from the bullet again.

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The reason I wasn’t as into this shade before was that it always seemed a little orangey to me when I believed that orange tones didn’t suit me. It is definitely a true red without a noticeable blue tone. It contrasts a bit more with my cooler purple hair at this point in time but overall gives a confident, summery look.

I thought for a moment of changing my planned April rotation so that they were ALL bright shades instead of waiting until May to start doing it. However, I do have some nice spring pinks that I want to use as well, so I changed my mind again. The temptation to break out of rotation these days is very strong! Especially when there is a shade I never reach for or one that I tend to reach for too much. But that’s the whole point of this challenge – to figure out what I truly love and what should be tossed without fail.

Anyway. I’m not sure how scheduled posting will be for the time being because I have an assignment to be finishing for next week, but at least I have some photos to work with when I need a break from reading academic journals.

Until next time,

X


Days since I last bought lipstick: 80

[Chatter] A Quiet Evening

I’m sure it happens to a lot of us.

I’ve noticed recently that I go through these phases of being very talkative, oversharing and social, then feeling very very quiet and reserved, and wanting to keep to myself as much as possible. Even now, I don’t feel like writing a lot. I don’t particularly feel like doing anything, actually.

Last night, I was having a bit of an ‘off’ evening where my mood was really low for no reason. I was struggling to take care of myself and had finally pushed myself into the shower, and forced myself to do my skincare and brush my teeth. As a bonus I even body-buttered myself. But on these days I also feel this strong urge of not wanting to sleep, and it was past midnight at this point.

This is a rather regular occurrence for me, by the way. I usually just try not to work against it and take some ‘me’ time without guilt and, when sleep takes over, the feeling lessens in the morning and I can take things from there. These phases pass. I am working on a long post about my depression, for later this month. In writing it, I realised how much this blog helped to track my emotions, so I do want to be talking more about my own emotions here.

Anyway.

I took out my deck of tarot cards. I was partly inspired by Alice’s post here, where she had her cards read, because it got me thinking, and reminded me that I have a set of cards. Do check out her blog – I find it very fascinating to read about her experiences living in Japan as someone who wants to live there one day or at least study abroad in Korea.

I’m not a heavy believer of tarot and I am obviously not a skilled reader. If anything, the cards present more questions than answers. However, I like to use them as a source of ideas and reflection, and they sometimes offer a new perspective on a problem I have.

I’ve been meaning to invest in a Rider-Waite deck and may actually get around to it soon. My current deck is just a small introductory one my friends picked out for a birthday once, but I really like the small size and its design.

A card that represents a part of my past that may be influencing my present

10 of Wands

Wands represent energy, growth and personal enterprise. The picture on this card depicts a man carrying a lot of sticks. I think it suggests a heavy workload. It brings to mind the idea of taking on too many new challenges and not being able to handle them all. Also, as you all know, I keep a lot of hobbies although I am not active with all of them at the moment, and this card is also making me think of that.

A card that represents the present situation –

Temperance, reversed

The image depicts a woman pouring something from jar to jar, amongst vines and a tortoise and a hare. It reminds me of how I like to be busy (the hare) but also need time to take it slow, like with my talkative and quiet periods (the tortoise).

Temperance means self-restraint. In particular, voluntary restraint or self-moderation. Mine is upside down, which could mean the opposite, or it could emphasise the normal meaning. To me, it means something is abnormal here. Am I too controlled or too uncontrolled right now?

I’m not fully sure what it could be referring to as there isn’t anything, in particular, I have been practising extra restraint or freedom in. Perhaps it could be about my mood, which is often out of my control and definitely was last night… but I find that to be too convenient of an interpretation, perhaps.

A card that represents an issue of the future

the King of Swords.

The picture depicts a king with grapes and a fox.

This card represents independent judgement and rationality, two things I can lack at times. Swords represent interaction, communication as well as intellectual pursuits, so I usually take the meaning in the context of work and study. This card suggests that I might improve in these aspects or that opportunites will arise in which I can, and this will be something that challenges me in the future.

A card that represents what can be done in the present to prepare for the future

2 of cups, reversed

The picture depicts a boy and girl holding a wine on which cups rest. SIGH. Cups in general represent the emotional and relationship side of life. I assume this card means relying on others for emotional support. This card could also be advising me to keep things light-hearted with a focus on relieving tension.

So, these were just a few things for me to think about and pass the time with. I’m always a little surprised at how applicable these can be and what I can learn from these despite not reading seriously.

Have you ever had a look at tarot card reading?

Until next time,

X

[Chatter] Re: Exams

Hi everyone!

If you’re doing A-Level mocks or modular university exams, then exam weeks are upon us and I wish you all luck! Some of you have probably even finished now so I hope they all went well. My own exams start just as this post goes up and end on Friday.

Exams have never been my strong point – let me point you to the gap year that resulted – but I think I have ways to manage now. I tried to put in a little extra effort as soon as possible to account for the inevitable week-long slump (which happened. I think it’s passed. I sure hope so). Luckily my course is assessed through a variety of methods (compared to exams I love a good essay) and although these exams are still 75-85% of their respective modules it’s still a bit of weight off.

I’ve been sleeping less well recently. Some nights I just struggled lying awake, other nights I genuinely had to chant ‘bed, bed, bed’ to myself whilst still scribbling down a couple (okay, another paragraph) of words. It’s revision guilt. It happens. I never feel like I’ve done enough. I never really feel ‘stressed’ in the same way that others do as I feel so calm even now, but then I worry about not being worried.

The only way I have found to help combat that a bit is to go do a chore or something I’ve been putting off. Shake things up. Move around. But I’m even struggling to get my skincare routine done. I’m still scribbling down notes for some reason. But anyway… I usually get to bed in the belief that the next day will be better. That’s the mindset to keep.

But it’s so, so important for me to get nine/ten hours sleep and I’ve only been managing 7 on average. I would say 7 is recommended for a barely functioning Swanna, but nobody wants that. 8 is pretty good because I feel less like crap. If I only have 6 my immune system also doesn’t do too well and I will suddenly catch a cold (which I am generally pretty resilient to. I used to be that kid that was never ill.)

As a result of all that, I think my general mood took a hit but when I think about it my mood does do a bit of a consistent dive before my period starts anyway… Since getting treated for depression I’ve remained hyper-aware of how I am feeling and what contributes to major or concerning changes in my mood and I have been putting things in place to help with that.

So, if you have an exam, have you planned an after-exam treat yet? It was actually meant to be the Paramore Birmingham concert, for me, but due to timings that ended up being actually right before my exam week (!!) but my current treat is Pierce Brown’s book signing at the end of the month. No doubt I’ll find a way to get food or buy something nice immediately after my last exam too! But yeah, I always plan some kind of event and keep it there, set in stone. Make it a lil special.

Remember to look after yourselves and prioritise your mental health over your mental ability. There’s nothing that worries me more than people who survive off three hours of sleep (if you’re reading this, you know who you are!).

Until next time,

X


Days since last buying lipstick: 21
Lipstick worn today: Maybelline Creamy Matte in Brown Sugar over MaxFactor lipliner in Red Rush.